Saturday, March 21, 2009

Is this my first crush???

Have u guys ever heard of first sight love....???? Till now i felt that this kind of love is a stupid nonsense and i don't belief in it at all.... This kind of love can be merely due to physical attraction and can be nostalgic but ussually short lived. I think it is more appropriate to call it a crush. And i do belief in crush espeacially from 7th of march....This particular day, i went to a cultural show of indians held in UNIVERSITI MALAYA with some of my frens. I went there as i'm really interested in stage shows espeacially dance shows. I went there and the programme started. There were students dancing ,singging ,acting and many more. Later there was a song in which a group of gals danced. Suddenly, I noticed a gal in that group. I don't know why i was so much atrracted to her. She was wearing a black colour dress and her fair skin tone matched that well. I was watching no one else but only her. I have not been attracted to someone this much before. She has short hair up to her shoulders which suited her cute charming face. She was dancing so gracefully like and angel smiling all the way.I don't know whether it is my own eyes view or it was same for anyone else. ' What a charming gal!! How lucky would I be if she is my gal???' I thought myself being spellbound. ' I gonna ask if she is single. I gonna ask her contact number.....' I thought mumbling to myself. She danced for only one song and i kept on searching for her and saw her sitting in a chair to the left of the stage not so far from me....She seemed to be so perfect to me and she was. Well, although i was not brave enough to ask her if she was single or ask her contact number.... i wanted at least tell her something...thats for sure. After the programme finished, i followed her without her noticing that....hehe... She was with one of her friend . Then i suddenly lost her in that crowd, and i went off to join two of my frens outside the hall. they were talking about something and when i went near them, i saw that gal standing just not far from them and they were actually commenting on her. One of my fren wanted to take a photo with her and i used this oppurtunity and offered to help him to take a picture. That gal was actually talking to one of the girl in UMP which was our fren too. Our fren told that they are friends and introduced her to us .....And finally she turned to have look at me and my fren. Then my fren told her that he wanted to take a pic with her and she was too shy and said it is ok if its a group photo. My friends and she stood together and i was the photographer. But I could not take a photo of them as it was too dark and the mobile resolution seems terrible. Well, it was not my problem at all as i was not in the picture...hahahaha... then my fren left off the scene and this was the moment i was waiting for. I wanted to tell her something.... At least a few word... I went near her and called her... She stopped and looked at me.. i said to her that she could dance really well... She smiled with an expression on her face as though she don't belief that( that showed that she is a humble gal)... I said that that it was true and i was watching her all over then I had a last glimpse of her smiling charming face and left the scene happily....I heard that she is not single .... So it would be not appropriate to tell or ask more than that...... Anyway,I won't forget her that easily...Is this my first crush???? I havent felt like this before in my life.....Wow...

Saturday, February 21, 2009

How complicated love can be????

>10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called
"best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
>11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.
She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
>Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
>Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
>A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!
I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried.
I Love You

Monday, February 16, 2009

Happy being single & not ready to mingle!!!!

Well.... to say honestly, I'm not a romantic type of person. I'm a type of guy who are kinda really not interested in serious relationships. I like to spent time on my own pampering myself and no one else...!!!!! I jz enjoy doing all the stuffs myself without much interference from others. When it comes to me everything is my own decision. Maybe all this shows that i'm a egoistic person, but it does make me feel powerful and independent..... hahaha.. Many had asked me why am i still single..Some even ask me if i have feelings!!! huhuhu...Well let them say doesn't make me feel bad at all....U know wat is my answer to them usually???

  1. i'm not a romantic lover boy...

  2. i have not came across the right person yet.....

  3. lets see if someone propose me first....

  4. i don't need extra commitments as for now....

  5. what for??? it's jz another burden...

  6. i'm happy with my single life....

  7. i don't wanna look insane...( i have many living examples in front me...)

  8. i'm stiil young....

  9. why do u care???

  10. no puppy love pleaasssse!!!!( i'm a matured guy with a kid like character...hope so..)

Well i'm not desperate to find someone and love them instantly, like a maggi mee........lets see wat happens...i'm very optimistic bout that...don't care much bout that oso...Single and steady??? It stands for Shanky!!!!!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

A thanks to my friends

Thank you for being there when I needed you...and even when I didn't,

Thank you for being there through the good times...and the bad,

Thank you for being there to encourage my dreams....and my crazy ideas,

Thank you for catching me...before I fell down,

Thank you for wiping away the tears...when I was crying,

Thank you for cheering me up...and making me laugh,

Thank you for all the great memories...and the bad,

But most of all... thank you...For being you!

Sunday, October 26, 2008's finished at last!!!!

The 'Malam Pesta Cahaya' (MPC) jz finished....i don't belief that i danced on stage!!!! Well, if we try everything is possible....First, i refused to dance for MPC coz i feel very uncomfortable doin stage shows.....espeacially 'DANCING'......i've danced once on stage during National Service (NS)....but , it turned out to be not such a good sum of us forgot the dance steps....and was covering it up on stage....haha...... even when the dance rehearsel for MPC i felt uncomfortable as.....some said i dun have enough flexibility....i dance more like exercising...hehehe......But thanks to my frens who gave me moral Yuri, Acd, Nic, Thinesh...Kaydenz...Ashley.... thank u all.... it was really nice of u people.....u people are catalyst for me....u made it easier for me to face it.....

Thursday, September 18, 2008


Since i'm a kid...i love when it rains.......i always wanted to play in the rain but was forbidden to do so by my mother....yeah...of course..who will let their child play in the rain anyway....but still once a while i purposely get wet in the rain...and then act innocently as though it happened in an unavoidable situation....hmmm....i feel very relaxed when it rains....the calm & cool situation ....really refreshing......feel like wanna forget all our problems & sleep soundly.........z..z...z...z

Tuesday, September 2, 2008


wat is the 1st thing that come to ur mind when someone mention about love.....well....most of us would be imagining a boy & a girl sitting together romancing....or a red rose......or most probably a heart??? hahaha.....Love represents a range of emotions and experiences related to the senses of affection and sexual attraction.The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction.
As an abstract concept love usually refers to a strong,
ineffable feeling towards another person
Spiritual love, or longing for God, is highly valued and sought after by many religions of both Eastern and Western origin.